TIREDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! hahaha~ ok...enuff of complaining~ im damn ass tired larh.. ytd the band performed at SMPS for the SMSS day dinner. reached home bout 1045.. slept bout 1-2am in the morning coz i was busy reading mangas.. hahaha!! it was only till i lie on my bed then i realise i was damn freaking tired>< hahaha^^ the performance ytd (my opinion) was ok. i played a damn freaking obvious mistake>< the whole band was silent and i came in EARLY!!!!!!!! **damn embarrassed** o...ya.. i went out wid felicia and teranna ytd too to ION ^^ i FINALLY went to ION(:!!!!!!! it was..HUGE!!!!!!! hehehhe~ went to eat fish n co and some other bread ( forgot the name. hehe). at fish n co we ordered one meal and shared among the 3 of us and another dish too. the drink we ordered was GIGANTIC. we had to share to finish it. REALLY!!! IT WAS DAMN FREAKING BIGGGGG!!!!!
i was bloated aft eating. hahaha!!! lucky coz the dinner( fried rice) that was provided at SMPS was damn oily!!!!!!!!! i think they poured the whole bottle of oil to fry juz one packet of fried rice(ok i think its abit too exagerated). but its true..if i were to eat it again..i will put the rice on a piece of oil absorber first then eat it.
ahhh~ cant wait to go out with my seniors tmr(: goin to ION again. but i will be meeting felicia first coz im not really sure of how to go there yet and i dun wanna go myself. hahaha!! in case i lost i dun wanna be lost alone:P i will be meeting felicia at 1015 in the morning so i will leave house at bout 0940. we will meet the rest at..1100 tmr at orchard mrt stn. i guess i shld slp now. if not i cant wake up tmr><


~**WISH ME A GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS TO CHASE THE NIGHTMARES AWAY ... ...**~

ahh~ went to watch 2012 today..and you noe wat...
IT WAS DAMN FREAKING AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahha!!!!! the sound effects were damn loud but it was good^^ one of my cousin din go cuz he had to go training for i=his tournament tmr. haha~ wonder why he never seems to get bored or tired of trainings. well..maybe he is used to it cuz he goes and bowl almost everyday i think.. haha~ and..today at the cinema i was freezing>< god!!! i tot i nearly froze to death;( i wore jacket but i think that wasnt enuff:(
haizz..tmr got band again.. have to rmb to bring my blazer.. well not exactly mine tho, its the skl's but i nid it coz of the smss day dinner. but i think the blazer is too small for me.. and the skirt..haha.. i think its to short le.. but hack larh.. the most borrow from other seniors lor..or I DUN GO FOR THAT BLOODY DINNER!
having 'bit of moodswings lately.. maybe becuz of those problems.. but it cant be helped.. im 'bit depressed bout it.. i dun think i can find anyone to tell.. 'trust no one' tats my policy.. until i can really find someone that i can trust whole-heartedly.. i will stick to tat.. bet there wun be anyone. frens walk out of ure lifes once they are bored of u. they find new ones and u are discarded and forgotten. juz lyk little kids, when they get new toys, they juz throw the old ones aside. i rmb when i was a little kid, when i got new toys, i try to play wid my old ones too. but it was hard as the new ones were nicer. this is human nature. they pick the newer and better ones. there goes the same for frens. i hope i dun becum lyk those ppl hu i detest the most. but some frens can throw u aside and forget bout u for popularity. those are the most disgusting ppl. there are so many ppl hu are lyk this..so i learnt not to trust anyone..maybe im getting soft.. maybe i regretted being to soft and had the tot of trusting ppl again. but i really want to find someone hu i can really trust. is it that hard to find someone whom i can REALLY trust and not walk out of my pathetic life?! maybe..there are frens whom i can trust but..i dun think im ready to trust them enuff to tell them my real problems. i never told anyone bout it.. neither have i told anyone wat my REAL secrets are. HAHHAHA~!! i hope NO ONE ever finds out bout it. its a secret;] a secret that will be double-locked away in my heart and never opened. cuz... i cant find the key to open it(:! that one person tat ever knew locked it and disappeared from my life. so i cant find a replacement key to unlock it and i think i want it to remain tat way.. and i want to remain hu i am now.. not change into someone i dun recognise. i tried so hard to change myself..im not gna let it go down the drain lyk this. no i wun. but i can feel myself slipping into the old me again.. im .. scared...i hate that me...

hehe~ first time posting sth aft editing my blog. well..my blog got screwed up so had to change the template orelse everything will be screwed.. haha! bowling tournament is finally over((: *phew* i did pretty well <> but atleast i improved^^ i used to be bottom few out of all the female bowlers. now im 23/36 of female bowlers(: im happy. really.. i scored a total of 559 for 4 games in the singles and 505 for 4 games in the doubles. din do so well for the second day coz im not use to the lane condition.
haha~ today is my sis birthday. HAPPY BIRHTDAY JIEJIE!!! sorry..its so late but.. im gna celebrate wid her tmr^^ wid my other two cousins ofcoz. it will be kinda late coz one of my cousin has skl activities till dunno wat time so i planned the movie at 5.30pm. safer mah~
ytd i went for the club training. its the second time ald. im still not use to it yet... idk if i will ever get use to the ppl there. my cousins are there but i seldom tok to them as they have their own frens. its kinda awkward to tok to them when their frens are around u noe..
argh... the smss day dinner is this coming monday><><>2012!!! i cant wait to watch it!!!!!!! ahh~ anyone goin to watch new moon? i think im goin to watch wid my pri.frens.. coz i dun think i want to watch wid my cousins so... haha!! nic~ are u guys confirm going to watch??
i have a bit of problems lately..not really nice to post it up here..so sorry>< its private u noe.. not sth to let the whole world noe:P its getting kinda late le~ so i guess i shld sleep.. nightZzz~

~~~ hope i have no problems sleeping tonight..nightmares go away.. dun ruin my lala land~~~

hahhaa~~ when was the last time i actually posted sth? errr... ya.. 9th oct. haha! not that long ago compared to some other time(: im actually in skl right now having the post exam activities which is... GRAPHIC DESIGN. boringgg.. the instructor wanted an introduction of ourself. godddd~!! i juz ended up saeing 'idk' to get an easy way out. well tts wat she said-easy way out. helpppp... but maybe it will be niceee.. in the end.. k.. shall end here.. ltr kenna get caught then diee~

gah~! its the exam nightmares now>< haiz... everyone will be mugging < i think everyone is ald mugging > for exams. english and chinese down left maths, ih, science. maths got 2 freaking paper!!!!!!!!!! can you believe it?! DAMN IT! but that isnt the worst news i noe so far.. wana guess? not band ofcoz tho its a nightmare still. almost practice everyday. haizz.. its actually about my bowling): i juz heard from my mom that im in to the club. the coach had selected me. WHY THE FREAKING HELL WLD HE CHOOSE ME?! I BOWLED LYK SHIT THAT DAY!!!!! he muz be mental to choose me. saying that becoz i very tall and quite well built so wana train me to bowl even better. i hate it when ALL the coaches sae that. hey! cummon man! it gives me LOADS of pressure when they sae that. now i have to join the club. tho i tell my parents i dun mind..but actually i dun realli wan2 join. i wana concentrate on band first. i cant exactly juggle this two things at the same time. coz if i join the club means that there will be quite alot of tournaments that i have to go for.now..i seriously juz wan2 concentrate on band, do well in it, improve in it. but for some reasons..maybe..coz of.. nvm .. i shant sae it here. but hu noes.. the coach may give up on me sooner or later. haha~~ maybe he will think that im hopeless so he will give up^^ but i dun wan that to happen too.. im weird, right? i dun lyk the feeling that somone has given up on me. its either i quit the club or i excel and prove to the coach that im good. well..tats me(: but u still wonder if i can cope wid it. wid all the stress and all. coz...those ppl there are DAMN FREAKING PRO! its either they are from spore sports skl or RI or acsi! all of them are juz..pro in bowling. GOSH! and to imagine that im gna train wid them soon..well on every wed night. but .. nvm.. MUZ BE POSITIVE^^ if i cant cope i think my parents will allow me to drop it. afterall im taking my grade 8 exam nx yr. so..it means that i have band to worry bout, bowling to improve, piano exam to stress over. haizz..
welcome to my WONDERFUL life~

hahaha!! damn..this blog is DEAD!!!
i decided to post sth today coz..well im bored.. and sian after studying.
i really mug alot this time..i scared i dun do well for end of year exam>on sunday i went to my aunt's house to wat mooncake(: and we watched red cliff II!! was nice! hahaha! i noe i damn lame but its srsly damn freaking nice! and... ...nvm.. haha! i better go continue mugging now(: shocked? haha! tats me..i mug lyk hell de..hahha!!! jkjk!!! :P

haha~~ my blog collecting dust liao~ din feel lyk blogging:P ahhh~ where hall i start.. i shall start wid wat happen on saturday^^ i was sick for 2 days(fever) but luckily i recovered on time for the speech day(: on speech day,we end skl at 1030 but for the prize winners, we had rehearsal so we had to stay FOR AWHILE. tats wat the teachers said, but guess wat, we tayed till 1215+ curse them lar. sae we sing so soft! they sing lar! aft the rehearsal, me and carina went to NYNY to eat lunch^^ we took loads of pictures there;D haha~~ i shall show u guys some pics(; cant show all coz got wear skl uniform:P